Hello, hello! It’s been a couple of months since the last update. This is not going to be a proper, fleshed-out post as I’m in the middle of my exams and have not been feeling very up for anything lately. My head-space hasn’t been at its best and although I’m watching over all facets of my daily life, I can’t seem to pinpoint why. Maybe it’s the exam stress, although I hate how much this seems to have a grip on me.
Have I felt frustrated? Yes. Weary? Yes. Annoyed, distracted and unmotivated? All of the above. It seems like I’m on my down days. The routine is getting to me. I really just want to break out of it but I don’t know what can replace it. Although time is flying, I feel as if I’m dragging my feet in the opposite direction. I think I just need a breather but I don’t know if I can afford one, which is pathetic because health is an asset!
Yes, I do need a breather.
I need to be still – mentally, emotionally and spiritually. Fix my perspective, wipe my glasses clean, breathe in deeply, and take every step singularly.
Help me, God. Remind me of Yourself. I’m broken everyday and only You can fix me.
Keep me in the pursuit of righteousness and steadfastness of faith and love.
Keep me in the race, to know and appreciate Christ daily, fervently, thoroughly and wholeheartedly.
Keep my head up, afloat and serene.
Keep my heart full of the knowledge of Christ.
Keep my mind sharp against the temptations and untruths of this world. Keep my lips full of honest, reverent praise.
Keep my hands against both idleness and restlessness.
Keep my feet planted in the truths of the Word. Let it not be tempted to stray from the path of light.
Keep my memories full of Your goodness. Help me to smile in remembrance of how You’ve carried me through those less fond.
Keep my heart from self-deceit and self-pity.
Keep my life for Your work and glory.
‘Yes, and I will rejoice, for I know that this will turn out for my deliverance through your prayers and the provision of the Spirit of Jesus Christ, according to my earnest expectation and hope, that I will not be put to shame in everything, but that with all boldness, Christ will even now, as always, be exalted in my body, whether by life or by death, for to me, to live is Christ and to die is gain’. – Philippians 1:18-21